There are days when you feel a complete numbness and though you may be surrounded by a canopy of noises, you still feel detached as if you are someway far away in an unknown part of one's cerebral world. That's how I am feeling right now. There's a portable wall fan over my head, blowing directly onto my face and my mind is preoccupied in a whirlwind of abstract thoughts. Thoughts that have been fueled by a series of equally abstract dreams. There are some who say dreams are a subconscious reflection of our needs and desires. Maybe somewhere this does hold a certain amount of truth as a couple of months  back I had this really beautiful dream that brings a smile to my face even today. Though I don't remember the exact dream, but it definitely pertained to me finally finding complete joy and freedom. I felt free, happy and loved. I dreamed I had found my soul mate and we were walking through wide green fields. Laughing all the way and feeling a sense of deja vu and bliss. But throughout the dream what was more prevalent than even finding my soul mate was the feeling of experiencing complete freedom. As if I did not have a care in the world. I was free to do dance, sing, play and not be ridiculed by anyone. I for once after a really, really long time felt happy. I got up in the morning with a smile on my face...which stayed for days...